My bad...

Current Song: Prayer by Disturbed
Current Mood: Relaxed
Events of the Day:
-Lack of sleep
-Taco Bell
-Chaw and COD4
-Friends
-Wild Boys
-Facebook
-Music all day and night

Sorry, it's been almost a week. My bad, friends.

If you are friends with me on Facebook, then you should probably know that I've decided to make my status updates either Disturbed lyrics, or lines of my own poetry. I know...a bit homosexual for a guy, but I've expressed myself through various arts my entire life, so like it or not, that's how it is. Quit your bitchin', Nancy.

Nothing too new about the last post. Things are more or less up in the air and I'm still seeing where they go and how it all turns out. I know this is stupid, but hold on for about 17 seconds: I'm gonna throw a chew.

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Mmm. Grizzly wintergreen. Cheap, strong, and wintergreen-y. And I still think it's better than smoking (which I've done since I was 15 and recently quit).

Okay, so this is kind of vague and more than a little overthinking, but I was reading a birthday card my friend made me. It's taped up on my little bulletin board thing in my room. It reads:
"Happy Birthday Nick!! Thanks for always believing in me! You are a great friend! ror: raff out roud! I (heart) u Nick"
So, I love and adore this friend, she's amazing. But what is bugging me (and it shouldn't) is that she's thanking me for being a friend. For believing in her. I don't think I should be slated for any thanks whatsoever to any of my friends. I am what I expect of them. I believe in them, because I know they believe in me. There's no need to thank me for doing what's expected of me.
I am friends with you because I choose to be. Because I find value in you and I believe that we both benefit from being friends. Because I enjoy your companionship; I appreciate your loyalty and your help; I am grateful for the support and I am made stronger with you at my side. But I never say this to you because I don't expect it from you.
Please permit some ego here, but I am extremely loyal, maybe the most loyal person you know. If you come to me with something serious that you need my help with, I'll do it. No questions asked. If you believe it's important to you, it'll happen. I don't care what the consequences are, bad or good. I'll get it done. Money, backup, support, putting in a good word, talking to someone, second in a fight, it doesn't matter.
I'm great to talk to. I'll listen to what you have to say and I'll give you my opinion on the matter (why else would you talk to me about it if you didn't want to hear it?). I don't care if you don't want to hear it, if you talk to me about something, i'm going to put in my two cents on it. If it's a secret, I'll keep it secret. To the grave. Never in my life will I betray your trust.
I'll believe in you. I'll support you in whatever you want to do. Obviously, I'll do it within reason; if you're going to like, kill someone, I'm going to talk you out of it or, failing that, I'll tie you to a post or something to stop you. If you want to do something with your life- get a job, or need to make a serious decision, or something else- I'll support you 110%. If it means that much to you, I'm going to support you and help you out if you need it. If you can't find the faith in yourself with some situation or whatever, I'll point it out to you.

Now, having said all that, I'm over my little ego trip. I want you to know that if I'm friends with you, then you have the same qualities and traits that I have because I wouldn't be friends with you if you didn't.
So please, there is never any reason to have to thank me for anything. Ever. If I go out of my way to help you in any way, shape, or form, it's because I choose to. I don't want to be thanked for making a decision I know all of you would make for me if I was in the same position. I just want us to be friends for life. And we will be. Please, please, PLEASE don't embarrass me by thanking me. Now, if you do, no worries; it humbles me. But it really is quite unneeded. As my friend, you should know that I'm here for you for anything, by my choice and no one else's. There's no obligations, no stipulations or by-laws requiring me to do what is expected of me.

OZ till the day I die bitches!
~Nick